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What I decided, long ago, to use this journal for is a medium for my darkest thoughts, my inner fears, my most depressing moments. By expunging them here, I can more easily deal with them in life. I am not completely pictured here by my words...nor has anyone ever been completely represented by what they write in their journal. This is a facet, a shade, a mood. This is but one part of an infinitely more complex whole. The human animal, in all its respects, is by far too complex a thing to be fully represented in such a limited venue as this. I can't do it, you can't do it. There is always a part of oneself that remains hidden from the world, and always will be. That is how things are, how they've always been, and they're not changing now.
With this in mind, please forgive me when I say that no one has any right to accuse me of being hypocritical with what I put here for all to see. I do not go around with a scowl on my face twenty-four hours a day. I do not mope in corners for want of some kind of purpose in life. I am not going to jump off a cliff. These things, however, do not mean that I am lying, or misrepresenting myself in any way here. I am more than what you read. If you want to know more, get to know me -- fully -- before you make offhand judgments. Thank you.
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